It's morning, and I'm waiting for a hornet exterminator to arrive. The huge ball of paperish material is hanging outside our front door, and needs removal before our day in October when we hope to have a memorial for my husband.
I don't want to risk anyone getting stung by angry hornets.
Can you see the sun shining on the ball of bald-faced hornets?
We all have enough to worry about these days without that, too.
A thunderstorm moved through this morning, and now the sun is drying the grass. It promises to be a gorgeous Minnesota day, cool and bright.
My heart is still hurting. Some days I think I'm going to have a heart attack myself, I wonder about the symptoms I am experiencing, chalking them up to deep stress mostly.
I've asked my friend to pray for my heart, which seems to be beating heavily, and I have definitely seen answered prayer. Since the night after Brian died I have had an unusual heartbeat. I know shock and grief can have a profound effect, so I am monitoring these symptoms. I still feel "numb."
The other night while attending class up at my university I sat listening to lecture with pounding heart---something I just never noticed before. This seems to be my new reality.
When I exercise it seems no worse, so I just believe this is my new norm. Toxins? Stress? All, probably. This is grief.
I wake up in the morning and I still startle at my new reality. Brian isn't here.
How does one get used to something so profound after 30 years? He was my partner, he was my friend and lover. How do I face the new days?
Yes, I have the LORD, but how do I turn on the furnace?
My classes have started, and I'm impressed with one of my professors. The other one needs prayer in a deep way, his foul language during 3 hours of lecture made me wonder if he was intoxicated.
Such is the state of higher education these days.
The world is a mess, but we already knew that. Globalists think they've got the answers, but they don't, and WE DO. Jesus is the answer. Trying to do human life without Him is like bandaging a festering sore.
One main thing I am voting for Trump for is his stated dislike for globalism and his stated patriotism. He may be Antichrist, but I'm voting against a known evil: global Marxism. Trump is a human, like Cyrus the Great, with moral failings and deep conflicts, but I vote against a known evil: atheistic socialism.
I know that the evangelical church has been driven toward apostasy by the "cool kids" who toy with Biblical inerrancy and subscribe to "Higher Criticism" and the Frankfurt School, all born of Marxism.
We have the time now to stay the course of globalism. It's coming, but we can try to hold it off. Trump may want a New World Order and he may be privy to the inevitable Antichrist kingdom that IS coming, but we must do what is most morally sound as citizens of our great country. Voting against humanistic philosophies is our spiritual obligation.
Socialism is absolutely immoral.
"Social Justice" is a moniker for socialism, and it has quietly infiltrated each and every system of education, including those we once held up as bastions of evangelicalism.
We're all "cool kids" in love with "social justice" now.
When you qualify any thing like the word justice you must start asking questions.
Go deeper.
Be aware.
Where did these insidious philosophies begin?
-----In rebellion against the God of the Bible.
You see that God, the Creator who is described in Scripture, the one who defines Himself as just, love, merciful, all-knowing, all-powerful, sacrificial, omnipresent, creative, all-sufficient------that God is not welcome in Satan's worldly kingdom.
So Satan slithers into the places that once held to Biblical Truth and he questions them, just like he did to Eve. "God really can't be like that-----"
And so begins the doubt of agnosticism, rebellion, and humanistic philosophy.
Yes, that IS the truth. Cut and dry, laid out, clear for all to see. God's truths are as simple as the two-year-old can fathom (JESUS LOVES ME) and as complex beyond ALL human understanding. He reveals Himself to each of us.
He has revealed Himself to me, and He will reveal Himself to you if you're willing to humble yourself before Him (unlike Satan.)
Pride is the king of the seven deadly sins, and the one that keeps God at bay in every human heart.
It's the one I saw in my profane and foul professor the other night.
Insidious.
It's the one I see in the thinkers of this age, so in love with the workings of their own minds and understanding that they pridefully judge the God of the Bible and His character to be less than their own brain cell activity.
It's the human heart, the sickness of soul. It's in everyone, so it's truly common. It takes an act of the Holy Spirit to humble hearts and bring about true conversion.
But you must be willing.
Prophecy watchers know that time is short. These days are exciting! WE are the generation that is seeing the fulfillment of Scripture!
Are you ready, Bride?
The Bridegroom comes!
MARANATHA!!!!
